It's start of July now.
Rejections, rejections and more rejections. Practically, i was receiving all the rejection letters from uni for the past 2 mths. A total of 5 letters. Wow, that's..alot. Well, i accepted such cruel facts and at the same time wondering if i am one of those few who have rcved the most rejection letters. Ahaha.
Luckily, NIE accepted me- the fact that had surprised me much coz i tot i would not pass the mere 5 min interview. Since young, all the ppl around me kept saying that i have the potential to be a good teacher, i have a teacher's look etc etc. At that time, i shrugged the idea off. But today, i am really going to be a teacher! So perhaps, 我一生注定要当老师? Haha. I dunoe how to react.
I can say that i had been through alot(as in 吃苦 part) more than my friends and ppl around the same age as me while applying for uni-- from having interview (with professional educators) to taking entrance profiency test alone at an ulu place. Sometimes, i will be wondering, "why am i facing all this? I have work hard for my studies, but what i have gained is...like this?!" At that point of time, i really understand wad's the true meaning of working smart, not merely working hard now. I hate myself having to realise at this time. But well..it's a relief that i realise now than i realise when i turn 40 plus (the time when it's all too late), isn't it?
I am still quite uneasy about taking up the NIE course. I am alrite with the teaching activities but not with it's tight rules and regulations. Not being able to take up other training courses nor part-time employment while undergoing teacher training since i am salaried paid etc! Okay i do understand the government intention to want us to focus on our studies but i would like to have my own time doing what i want(eg. gg back to work as temp staff during my own hol!)
Most importantly, i am more concerned about my future, what my future will be like. I dun wana jus be a classroom teacher, i want to go to the specialisation track, eg.in environmental science if i have the capabilities to do so. 8 years..my father said it's fast. But is it so? I feel quite old when i hit 27 years old! My father laughed when i said turning 27 is old. He said some women still can strike themselves out into the society in their 30s, so why cant i do so too? I really doubt what he said at first. But one sentence that he said had greatly encouraged me, that is, " I do believe.. I do believe.. that u have the capabilities and capacity to do so". I am really grateful for whatever he had said and shared with me. I am glad that i managed to pluck out my courage to say out what is bottled within me for the past mths. Although it may not change the situation much (as in there will be other courses available for me..which is like, duhh it wont happen unless i apply again next yr), but i am feeling much lighter now at least. Yup. Much lighter.
Having said that, i feel that all the more i shld cherish my remaining days in office! One by one, all the three animals left the office, leaving behind the kangeroo under the "care" of 2 zookeepers.Haha. I really miss them;their funniness and craps xDD I also really dun bear to leave the company! But, all good things will come to an end eventually. So yup i should really 珍惜眼前的一切. Life at office has become more fun and funny! Working and lunching with my grp of friends, as well as sitting near team B is one of the best experiences i have out of all my working experience! Ahaha. Processing of policies have became more 好笑 when i overheard(Not eavesdeopping)their really funny conversation and jokes xD Recalling how many times sj and i seem to have mo qi to turn around, look at each other and 忍笑 at the same time! Haha i really gonna miss that i when i leave the company. Oh ya, it's my first time laughing until my whole face turn red in the office today! HAHA hot hot 的感觉 on the face xDD Dunnoe why, but i suddenly have the urge to tell Iris that i want to work until 15 aug. LOL xD
Bye bye (:
Rejections, rejections and more rejections. Practically, i was receiving all the rejection letters from uni for the past 2 mths. A total of 5 letters. Wow, that's..alot. Well, i accepted such cruel facts and at the same time wondering if i am one of those few who have rcved the most rejection letters. Ahaha.
Luckily, NIE accepted me- the fact that had surprised me much coz i tot i would not pass the mere 5 min interview. Since young, all the ppl around me kept saying that i have the potential to be a good teacher, i have a teacher's look etc etc. At that time, i shrugged the idea off. But today, i am really going to be a teacher! So perhaps, 我一生注定要当老师? Haha. I dunoe how to react.
I can say that i had been through alot(as in 吃苦 part) more than my friends and ppl around the same age as me while applying for uni-- from having interview (with professional educators) to taking entrance profiency test alone at an ulu place. Sometimes, i will be wondering, "why am i facing all this? I have work hard for my studies, but what i have gained is...like this?!" At that point of time, i really understand wad's the true meaning of working smart, not merely working hard now. I hate myself having to realise at this time. But well..it's a relief that i realise now than i realise when i turn 40 plus (the time when it's all too late), isn't it?
I am still quite uneasy about taking up the NIE course. I am alrite with the teaching activities but not with it's tight rules and regulations. Not being able to take up other training courses nor part-time employment while undergoing teacher training since i am salaried paid etc! Okay i do understand the government intention to want us to focus on our studies but i would like to have my own time doing what i want(eg. gg back to work as temp staff during my own hol!)
Most importantly, i am more concerned about my future, what my future will be like. I dun wana jus be a classroom teacher, i want to go to the specialisation track, eg.in environmental science if i have the capabilities to do so. 8 years..my father said it's fast. But is it so? I feel quite old when i hit 27 years old! My father laughed when i said turning 27 is old. He said some women still can strike themselves out into the society in their 30s, so why cant i do so too? I really doubt what he said at first. But one sentence that he said had greatly encouraged me, that is, " I do believe.. I do believe.. that u have the capabilities and capacity to do so". I am really grateful for whatever he had said and shared with me. I am glad that i managed to pluck out my courage to say out what is bottled within me for the past mths. Although it may not change the situation much (as in there will be other courses available for me..which is like, duhh it wont happen unless i apply again next yr), but i am feeling much lighter now at least. Yup. Much lighter.
Having said that, i feel that all the more i shld cherish my remaining days in office! One by one, all the three animals left the office, leaving behind the kangeroo under the "care" of 2 zookeepers.Haha. I really miss them;their funniness and craps xDD I also really dun bear to leave the company! But, all good things will come to an end eventually. So yup i should really 珍惜眼前的一切. Life at office has become more fun and funny! Working and lunching with my grp of friends, as well as sitting near team B is one of the best experiences i have out of all my working experience! Ahaha. Processing of policies have became more 好笑 when i overheard(Not eavesdeopping)their really funny conversation and jokes xD Recalling how many times sj and i seem to have mo qi to turn around, look at each other and 忍笑 at the same time! Haha i really gonna miss that i when i leave the company. Oh ya, it's my first time laughing until my whole face turn red in the office today! HAHA hot hot 的感觉 on the face xDD Dunnoe why, but i suddenly have the urge to tell Iris that i want to work until 15 aug. LOL xD
Bye bye (:
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