There were alot of things happening recently, especially during the preparation of Dec event till now at the moment. Several particular events had also made me think alot for the past few nights, sorting out my thoughts.
I thought I was quite determined to stay in main comm next year, but after the Dec event and stuff, I began to ponder whether to stay on anot, or to leave and remain as members. I missed the times being as a member..no need to get myself so busy for many things (which my bro regarded that as redundant) and stress myself out. But then again, it was the main comm work that kept me occupied and going when I was down and didnt feel like going to school for the previous semester. I dont deny that joining main comm had brought me quite some fun and laughter, as well as some lessons learnt..including training me to become more vocal and confident in speaking up. Perhaps, Haur Ming is right. Since I dun need to earn hall points, I can just quit main comm and join sub-comm instead! Maybe, i will be less stressful but still have something to keep myself occupied this way. Haha..
Complication 1 + 2 + 3= many reflection times for the past few nights.
Complication 1: You appear alrite when talking to me. I thought everything had died down and I shouldn't bring it up again. But on the other hand, you are "pestering" mq even more. Are these two separate issues? Am I wrong to link them tgt? Are you serious about it this time? I have so many question marks but I am afraid to ask..because it might become a gang ga situation for the 3 of us if I do that. But if I didn't ask, this thing seems like it will never resolve :/
Complication 2: I am scared that you might distance away, and that I need to purposely da ting ni de xiao xi. I dont want that everytime you talk to me, you will mention about him. I hope everything can shun qi zi ran (like you said). On a brighter note, thanks for being truthful to me and willing to talk it out. At least, I know what you are thinking(:
Complication 3: It is not really expected that things will progressed until like this. I thought your feeling for me was just temporary and that you are treating me more like closer friend instead. Perhaps, I shouldn't have known about this. I have myself to blame for being curious and discover things that complicate the current situation. I dont want that everytime you talk to me, you will keep mentioning about him. I dont know that you held that promise for me, and I have become more worried about you after knowing this. Perhaps, I should just slowly distance myself away from you first so that you can sort out your thoughts better.
I shldn't be nicknamed as Miss Sunshine, but Miss Trouble:X
On a brighter note, I have managed to sort out most of my thoughts! :D
1) Although I know that it will be a tougher sem than before, I will work harder and smarter for my studies, towards my target for gpa above 4 next sem. I wont forget my slogan: Believe in myself and my blend of 5 elements, B.C.C.P.W :D
2) Although there was still a tinge of unreadiness and fear of change, I am more or less prepared for it((:
I shouldn't be afraid of Year 2012. I should be looking forward to it!(:
I thought I was quite determined to stay in main comm next year, but after the Dec event and stuff, I began to ponder whether to stay on anot, or to leave and remain as members. I missed the times being as a member..no need to get myself so busy for many things (which my bro regarded that as redundant) and stress myself out. But then again, it was the main comm work that kept me occupied and going when I was down and didnt feel like going to school for the previous semester. I dont deny that joining main comm had brought me quite some fun and laughter, as well as some lessons learnt..including training me to become more vocal and confident in speaking up. Perhaps, Haur Ming is right. Since I dun need to earn hall points, I can just quit main comm and join sub-comm instead! Maybe, i will be less stressful but still have something to keep myself occupied this way. Haha..
Complication 1 + 2 + 3= many reflection times for the past few nights.
Complication 1: You appear alrite when talking to me. I thought everything had died down and I shouldn't bring it up again. But on the other hand, you are "pestering" mq even more. Are these two separate issues? Am I wrong to link them tgt? Are you serious about it this time? I have so many question marks but I am afraid to ask..because it might become a gang ga situation for the 3 of us if I do that. But if I didn't ask, this thing seems like it will never resolve :/
Complication 2: I am scared that you might distance away, and that I need to purposely da ting ni de xiao xi. I dont want that everytime you talk to me, you will mention about him. I hope everything can shun qi zi ran (like you said). On a brighter note, thanks for being truthful to me and willing to talk it out. At least, I know what you are thinking(:
Complication 3: It is not really expected that things will progressed until like this. I thought your feeling for me was just temporary and that you are treating me more like closer friend instead. Perhaps, I shouldn't have known about this. I have myself to blame for being curious and discover things that complicate the current situation. I dont want that everytime you talk to me, you will keep mentioning about him. I dont know that you held that promise for me, and I have become more worried about you after knowing this. Perhaps, I should just slowly distance myself away from you first so that you can sort out your thoughts better.
I shldn't be nicknamed as Miss Sunshine, but Miss Trouble:X
On a brighter note, I have managed to sort out most of my thoughts! :D
1) Although I know that it will be a tougher sem than before, I will work harder and smarter for my studies, towards my target for gpa above 4 next sem. I wont forget my slogan: Believe in myself and my blend of 5 elements, B.C.C.P.W :D
2) Although there was still a tinge of unreadiness and fear of change, I am more or less prepared for it((:
I shouldn't be afraid of Year 2012. I should be looking forward to it!(:
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