Life is not just about the race

Release my tears while running 3 days back.  Imagine the thought of self-questioning. Imagine the thought of giving up. I thought that I would get over it if I have a plan to move on from where I am.  But the fact is,  I will still face with the emotional period, especially when there are many things happening regardless of everything and anything. Although everything will be okay (with some positive thoughts), it is pretty tiring and torturing to go through such emotional turbulence over and over again. I wonder how I had been through the 4 years of study in NIE, and wonder how I will be able to go through another 4 years in schools. If I am always having the hidden negativity despite my attempted positivity with my job, does it mean that I should change..or quit? Why am I mentally torturing myself? When would I get over it completely? "Everything will be okay in the end. If it is not okay, it is not the end."

Work   The first two months of the year has been quite a roller coaster ride for me as I have more responsibilities at hand and need to be readily prepared for any unforeseen circumstances. Nevertheless, I feel lucky to have some 贵 人 around, to support and cheer me up somehow when I am feeling down and stressed. I am also quite glad that I have overcome the "frustrated-with- my-mentor" stage and have a closer relationship working with her:) I used to be silently turned off by what she did and said, however, I am glad that my patience has made me realized and see her from another positive perspective, and I am really pretty proud of that:)) I used to my posting to CGSS for granted and was hoping to be transferred out of this school because I am alone. Nevertheless, through the conversation I heard from my practicum friends (they are in the same school), I feel fortunate that I do not have to face with the huge challenges with students and colleagues, or least not as much...