Having lessons with Shaw is one of the best things that happened to me. Some lessons have been inspirational and they touch the very core of my heart - my fear, my inferiority complex, my feeling of 'never good enough'. I am thankful that I have someone other than my family members whom I can be vulnerable in front of, to have someone that I can discuss my inner thoughts freely with. Some of our conversations have prompted me to reflect more deeply about myself and my life. The lessons and mini performance opportunities given have also helped to normalise the feeling of being 'free', to play the way I want it to be, to let go of my self-consciousness and to judge myself a little lesser. Sometimes, I do feel tired trying to be 'good enough' and having fear of being judged. However, the past 2.5 months of wanderlust and 6 months of learning Counselling have made me realised that all these thoughts are uncalled for. If I didn't go ahead with the...
As I enter into my 20s, I found myself to have exposed to more meaningful and learn-able experiences which slowly brings me to understand the cycle of birth, aged, sick and death. Here are some of my small yet impactful life experiences: After a month of internship at Swissbake, I think that perhaps, I shouldnt lump interest and job together because when an interest becomes a job, and that the job become a chore, interest will slowly diminished. And so, maybe baking/cooking can be just my recreational activities=) Due to such a thought and experience at Swissbake, I feel more strongly that being a teacher is a best choice for me! Haha. After chatting with mq, Brenda and bk, I begin to wonder, what do I aim for in life? I believe I will find it eventually and so, let nature takes its course. This aside, I also begin to understand death from another perspective, sadly, only after my neighbour passed away suddenly and without saying a proper goodbye to him. I was stunned a...
When things fall out of expectations, when it feels lonely and not understood, when there is low/no motivation to do what you used to love to do. When it seems that everything is struggling okay, actually deep down, it is not, emotionally. And sometimes it is okay and not feel guilty to think that 一个人也好.
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