我怀念的.

昨天是 ah ma 的忌日。

不知不觉， 九年了。回想当年, 当 ah ma 走了的那一天凌晨，当我必须去 "O" 水准华文考试的那一天早上。

而昨天,  妈妈跟我诉说小叔卖掉现在住的房子。我的心里感到不舒服。

这是ah ma 往生之前住的地方，是我和其他亲戚朋友新年聚在一起的地方 -意义非凡， 对我印象很深刻。没了它，感觉好不舍。

以后， 就再也不会听到 爸爸说： “。。。我们上去 215”。
。

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