Reunion.

It is first time that there are missing family members during the Chinese New Year. 

"Huh, 这还是团圆饭 meh?", my eldest cousin exclaimed. My heart sank.

My heart sank a second time upon knowing that my 舅母 and cousin were going to China during that reunion dinner night. At least after dinner..:)

I should be feeling really happy that there is lesser wayang during the dinner this time round. We could be ourselves, enjoyed the simple dishes and laughed out loud together. However, I just felt that there are something missing. Be it the atmosphere and people.

My heart sank for a third time upon seeing and feeling that my ah ma is not in her good shape.  I don't know whether the situation will be better if everyone is present to be around with her or she stops thinking about negative stuff. 

A lot of things will change in the family this year, and I hope things will turn out fine and good.

大家都是一家人, 为什么不能摊开心来讲? 有再大的不满，都还是一家人。

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