Life is not just about the race

Trying to recall what i did ytd and it reminded me of the problem-based learning presenation! Haha like usual, i was very nervous but luckily managed to control it when it was my turn to present(: Hahaha the other two groups did role play and one of them was super duper hilarious. One of the members acted as Ris Low and kept saying blah blah blah yah, bla yah, bla bla yah. LOL. Then my lecturer also got influenced by her and kept saying "yah" alot of times when she was talking to us sia. Super funny xD After the AED 102, i was also kinda influenced by "Ris Low" and kept saying yah too! Hahaha. Funny to the max! xD

It's 2a.m now. And i am coming up with "notes" for the tutee tmr. I gonna teach them some chinese words to say when they go hawker centre and restaurant to makan. Haha dunoe why i suddenly blank out sia. Finally, my overloading work is coming to an end and i feel much lighter! It's worth celebrating coz my eyes will be less likely to become one line. Lol. But next up is EOY exam! But i would rather choose exam coz projects are way too time-consuming. A few will be fine, but a lot is disatrous:X After the talk with my 2nd bro jus now, he had really set me thinking about my future career and relationship. Okay, gtg good nite (:

口中说放下了,但说穿了,是放下在某一个角落. 如果真的放下, 我为什么偶尔惦记着它 如果真的放下, 我为什么回想着它 如果真的放下, 长方形的它为何还有它? 如果真的放下, 为什么没勇气让它消失? 如果真的放下, 为何还留着它呢? 我, 真的放下了吗? I nearly wanted to give up. Really wanted to. I lost my determination to hold on. Suddenly, I feel helpless and my blend of five elements doesn't seem to be with me anymore. Jus wanna buy an air ticket to Bhutan, take my passport and fly away for a couple of months. I am imaging the scenario. Will that ever happen? Secondary school was like this, JC was like this too. And uni is still like this! Am i destined to stuck with this kind of life? If i am given a choice, i would choose to go and help the villagers who suffered and are still suffering greatly from the Mt Merapi eruption now. If i am given a choice, I would choose to go to the sub-African countries to help the people there. If i am given a choice...but do i have a CHOICE? I really want to do smth different apart from chiong-ing all assignments and projs all day long. I am sick and tired of them. I ...