口中说放下了,但说穿了,是放下在某一个角落.
如果真的放下, 我为什么偶尔惦记着它
如果真的放下, 我为什么回想着它
如果真的放下, 长方形的它为何还有它?
如果真的放下, 为什么没勇气让它消失?
如果真的放下, 为何还留着它呢?

我, 真的放下了吗?

I nearly wanted to give up. Really wanted to. I lost my determination to hold on. Suddenly, I feel helpless and my blend of five elements doesn't seem to be with me anymore. Jus wanna buy an air ticket to Bhutan, take my passport and fly away for a couple of months. I am imaging the scenario. Will that ever happen?

Secondary school was like this, JC was like this too. And uni is still like this! Am i destined to stuck with this kind of life?

If i am given a choice, i would choose to go and help the villagers who suffered and are still suffering greatly from the Mt Merapi eruption now. If i am given a choice, I would choose to go to the sub-African countries to help the people there. If i am given a choice...but do i have a CHOICE?

I really want to do smth different apart from chiong-ing all assignments and projs all day long. I am sick and tired of them. I find little meaning if i rush everything in exchange for grades. Ask myself, do i really internalize what i learn? Seriously.

Life goes on but i want my life to be different and meaningful one.

IN SEARCH OF A MEANINGFUL LIFE...

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