Self-less.

人之初, 心本善.

I believe that every human is kind by nature, but the environment and personal experiences have changed the way how humans actually show their acts of kindness. Gradually, humans will start to influence other humans, and the acts of kindness become more invisible. It's pretty sad to see such situation looming in society as our country begins to progress and prosper.

I always have the belief of kindness begets kindness, and that kindness can be passed on like ripples. Since young, my parents will say that I am "kaypoh", always do a lot of other things for people. To me, I couldn't understand why they say so sometimes, and I helped because I find meaning in helping, and should help. Back as a student, when I helped my friends and teachers, I am praised as being helpful. But now as an adult, when I helped out my colleagues, there isn't much form of sincere appreciation from some people. Some people do say "thank you", but I can sense that it is just 客套话. I mean, sometimes, I just have the feeling that I am taken for granted or being "made use" of. And then, I learnt to say no, or otherwise, don't get involved. However, it just isn't me to just ignore when help is needed (Kaypoh queen's syndrome eh?), but I have to grapple within myself that it will mean that I will sacrifice some of my time. Then, I learnt how to prioritize things.

I wont say that I have reached the stage of being selfless, but I am willing to lend helping hands to those really in dire needs. But if it comes to life and death, I will procrastinate that many of us do. Nevertheless, it really makes me feel a little disappointed in people, especially when they ignore help needed, and pretend that nothing happens. I know, I can't blame any particular person, because this is one of the natural human flaw in us. But, I just hope that people can be more proactive, don't be too overly focussed on our own things, don't always think about "me, mine and myself" only.

I don't know if one day, I will actually pluck up my courage to "talk some serious sense" to colleagues when I really can't stand whatever that is happening in school. When I do, I hope that it will be an impactful and unforgettable one. Haha well, it will most likely happen in my dream xD