First post in 2018

It has been so long since I last posted. I have always wanted to, but am plain lazy to do so.

Things have pretty much the same, with a few major episodes happening in between. I am trying to be more spontaneous in taking charge of what I want in life, and I hope that these will be fulfilled accordingly so without any regret.The thought of going to Australia for a year is really exciting and I cannot wait to realise this common goal with CL:) Nevertheless, I do feel stress about how I can help contribute to speed up the process and prepare ourselves better.

Good news: I am nearing the end of my 4 years bond! No doubt, I AM getting more excited for the next 3 months to welcome my 'freedom', but I realised that I feel more stressed:( Is it self-given stress or am I just afraid that I cannot realise the goal of going to Australia next year? I really don't know. 

Recently, there are several mentions about mental health matter. From Miss Elim Chew, to the school and through the workshop that I have recently attended. I have also came across an article on smiling depression and read up more on GAD. All these symptoms have made me suspect whether I am also experiencing both of them all this while. The anxiety, the speculation.  We are not perfect, I am not perfect. Most importantly, it lies on us whether we can manage the stuff in our mind, such as the "black dog". 

Let's hang in there and stay positive!

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