Life is not just about the race

I am not a 100% perfect girlfriend. You are not a 100% perfect boyfriend.  Although we are not the 100% perfect couple, but i am thankful that we are always seek to understand and better each other along the way. Thanks for always being so understanding (even when I play tantrum until some parts seem too absurd at times=X) and brightening up my day=)) Thank you, penguin

Yes, today marks my first day of my 4th year at NTU. After attending my friend's and cl's convocation, I really hoped that I had graduated at that moment too! The joy of graduation really tempts me to want to fast forward to my convocation day! xD But then again, I will certainly miss my school life and some of the best times I spent with my best (but few) university friends as well as in CCA. For that, it reminds me to cherish my time I have for my final year at NTU, as a student. And I certainly, will=) With a 2-day week this semester I am thinking of using this time for other things which I have usually neglected: Spending more time with family (especially mum), cleaning my room, helping A.L.L and needy, as well as baking/cooking new interesting food=)  With (seemingly) more time at hand, reminder to self: Cherish the time spent on different things and make full use of time to do what I like and on meaningful stuff too because YOLO=)) Believe in myself, I can an...

As I enter into my 20s, I found myself to have exposed to more meaningful and learn-able experiences which slowly brings me to understand the cycle of birth, aged, sick and death. Here are some of my small yet impactful life experiences: After a month of internship at Swissbake, I think that perhaps, I shouldnt lump interest and job together because when an interest becomes a job, and that the job become a chore, interest will slowly diminished. And so, maybe baking/cooking can be just my recreational activities=) Due to such a thought and experience at Swissbake, I feel more strongly that being a teacher is a best choice for me! Haha. After chatting with mq, Brenda and bk, I begin to wonder, what do I aim for in life? I believe I will find it eventually and so, let nature takes its course. This aside,  I also begin to understand death from another perspective, sadly, only after my neighbour passed away suddenly and without saying a proper goodbye to him. I was stunned a...

The more I bake, the more I know what I want to do in the future. But this is a goal that I might not be able to work towards it much in near future, I could only wait till the day when the bond sets me free.

Was mentally stunned by the release of tears in me, yet the tears were like a faulty tap which flows down my tears uncontrollably. Perhaps, there are too many things to do, too many things to think about,  so much so that the brain and heart cant take it anymore? Or..I am just having PMS? Haha. There is bound to be up and down, and up and down again. But I believe optimistic me wont stay (and will refuse to stay) at the "down" side for too long! Hehe.  Chill, relax, I can and I will :)

One of the happiest days of my life:)) I am really happy that we can walk till this far :D Hoping for many years to go on, and on..:)

Goals for the year of 2013: *To create a more fruitful and meaningful year than before:)) *To study smarter with good time management ;) *To grow kinship, friendship and relationship with CL, even stronger with more love, empathy   and patience  *To make differences to my future students' lives academically and non-academically :) *To make differences to the dogs' lives at A.L.L :') Hold on to these goals because, I believe..:)  

Celebrate or (and) weep, then what's next? I didn't feel as excited anymore when I am getting this semester's results, except that I am afraid I would get a C/D for my worst core module. I am really glad that I have gotten a B for that with a surprising A for another core module which I think I thought i would never get that grade (Yay, I managed to prove that I am still able to survive in a class of crossover students). Other than that, I didn't bother as much about my GPA as the last time. I am satisfied, and this semester is so called the first time when I didn't really take results to heart, really (but I will still put in my very best in the things I do). I am happy that I did :) Over the past few weeks, I had been enjoying my hols except the "sick" weeks and suddenly, a thought chanced upon me thinking about what I want to do to better myself as a future teacher. Last semester, I plucked up my courage to go to pets shelter and want to do smth...

For the better? Or for the worst? (right now) Maybe, I am subconciously uncomfortable with changing the ways I see about some things. Maybe, I am subconciously uncomfortable with changing the ways I think about some things. Maybe, I am subconciously uncomfortable with changing the ways that I do/handle some things. Maybe, I am still uncomfortable with changes. Despite such subconcious discomfort, changes continues, because I am pushed to follow the overwhleming flow, because the seemingly good ones camoflage the potential bad ones. It's encouraging to see myself being brave enough to attempt more changes. Yet, not everything should change with the flow or (and) situation.  I guess it's time to place a halt and strike a balance.

Thoughts #1 As English is more commonly used in today's context, I know I need to overcome my obstacle and fear for it. This would be especially so as I would be a teacher in near future.  Since young, I am not a very English language person. I would always fail to articulate well in this langauge when there are alot of people and when there are other people who have better English command than me present. Gradually, I feel a sense of inferiority when I speak to people in English. In secondary school, if not for my hardwork and help given by my teacher, my English would cmi. In JC, English got harder and my GP grade was near a fail grade. Since then, I was thinking, if I have gotten a better grade for that language (as well as for maths and econs), would I be entering another course in university. I felt inferior once again when I needed to take the EPT test before I go into...

The recess week had been a good buffer time for me to relax abit and did the things which I wished but did not have the time to do =)) Although I have not been able to revise much during this break, I managed to get some time reflecting what had gone wrong all these while and make improvement to them. It feels good that everything seems to be back in place and run smoothly currently. I know and am pepared that things might get messed up again but I will try my best to manage them to the best I can. I also feel really touched by mq, cl and my family's continuous support when I was feeling down and stressed up previously. Thanks all for being there for me, cheering me up=')) The friendship strengthened, the relationship grows, and kinship becomes more cherished by me. As I proceed on with the rest of the semester, I hope that I will continue to better myself, as a student and as a person in general. Time Mana...

Reality check. This semester is really a tough period for me, with loads of individual and group work projects. I wondered whether is I was too used to the previous slack semester such that the transition to this hectic semester was unbearable for me.I seem to lost myself in the mountains of work. I lost my own tempo in doing things and follow the others' tempo instead. I am feeling increasingly uncomfortable bcoz, I am, just not feeling being myself. I dont deny that my group mates are way more hardworking than me, and they could sacrifice their time and meal for the projects. I would certainly do the same, but the extent I am willing to sacrifice was far too little when compared to them. I felt guilty about it so I pushed myself to do the best like them. But, I kept feeling that I am not comparable to them and thus, feeling more discomfort. Initially, I thought that the stipen...

The past few days were my most memorable days celebrating my 21st with my family, CL, NYJC friends, NIE friends and it will still be so this sat with 8.1 =) Thank you for planning not one, not two but a series of surprises for me. Thank you for loving me so much! :D These really mean alot to me Zhen de, xie xie ni :') Thank you for specially coming down to my house to pass me my fav soya bean drink and cake with wang wang xiao man tou (it's not childish btw=D) Thank you for accompanying and giving me continuous support for the past 9 years I really cherish our friendship =)) and, I believe our friendship will last long :')

and as the tough might get tougher, I will hold on to my goal, press on and do my ^ very best =) I have not regretted how I spent my past three month holiday and will not forget the experiences and incidents I had during those period of time. My holiday is certainly more fulfilling and worthwhile compared to the last time:) ...In the making of a meaningful and satisfying half a year ahead ;) *I can and I will*

Like a boy-girl relationship, friendship also have its stages- Comfort stage. It's really nice to have a bunch of very close friends whom you are comfortable in talking to, playing with and sharing own troubles with them. But sometimes, when too comfortable, one will forget to be as appreciative as before or might take certain things for granted. I have to admit that I do act and behave in this way at times too.. When proactive actions become reactive and that more actions can be seen when push comes to shove.. And so, it's time to step out of comfort zone, and learn to put words into action when saying about appreciating friendship.

Once again, 9 August, but this year 2012. It's Singapore's independence day, her birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Singapore! =D It was really a shock to me when I heard about those rumours. Really prayed hard that it is not true..=S Hope to see him at the NDP parade tmr..=)

Sometimes, I do feel that I am easily affected by other people's behaviours. Whatever it is, I should just keep my cool and dont think too much. Yes, from now on.

I realised that I have been feeling a little moody recently, especially after the surgery. I would usually go for a run whenever I am down, but this time, I cant. The feeling of wanting to run, but not be able to run is quite uncomfortable. Just like there's something important missing in my life.. The swelling and surgery had incurred high medical costs and disrupted my holidays which I had planned thus far. No running, no going to ALL, no eating of seafood etc etc. All the things I like to do got to be paused for the moment, and I blamed myself for not taking good care of my health even more. Nevertheless, I wont let this to stop me from making full use of my holiday to do what I want. I will still go to ALL and run once I have recovered, and will start to tidy up my room and help in house  chores hopefully? Haha. But perhaps, this recovery process should be the time for me to spend more time on those I have neglected; my...

Almost everything seems to fall so perfectly in place such that in many occasions, I do feel kind of scared that I might not be appreciative enough and might lose them one day. Such a silly thought though, but yea that's what I have been feeling...Haha. All I wish to do now is to cherish the moments, people (especially my close and loved ones) and the things I have. I will also give my best to better them. Other than that, 就顺其自然吧... 因为, 不完美还是最完美的 (:

"A promise made is a debt unpaid"- Robert Service I cant agree more to this statement. That promise and the whole episode makes me look like a fool. Indeed, I am gullible :S I planned to let it be and let the nature takes its course. I don't wish to explain, because I am tired of it. Similar problem just exist. But, "give her the benefits of doubts". Yes, I will. Because I hope to believe that she will understand, I hope she really will. A chat with my mum and cl, a fun trip to USS with 8.1, as well as a spontaneous day out with cl (mainly to brighten up my mood which it eventually did ((: ) certainly made me feel much much better now :')