Life is not just about the race

As always, September is my all-time favorite month:) Not only bcoz it's my birthday month, but there's teachers' day and September holiday:) This was my very first time celebrating teachers' day as a teacher!:D I felt really excited and had looked forward to it very much. I am really touched by my form class students, who gave me birthday surprise early in the morning with sweet messages on the board, as well as the teachers' day presents. The girls were really sweet, and their gratitude towards the teachers were overwhelming yet heartwarming. The teachers' day message written by my form class touched the most bottom of my heart, and made me realize the teacher that I believe one should be, and what I want to be:') I didnt really enjoy USS as much with the teachers, mainly bcoz I am not very shou with most teachers, but I am glad that I have 3 close colleagues whom I took rides together with. Although you all might not see my blog, but thanks alot for y...

I am really really glad and grateful to have attended the 2-day course (thanks to gwen), for I discover more about myself, what I wish to do, and who I wish to become:) To say the truth, the past 2-day course was quite emotionally tough for me as I found myself needing to fight back against my tears when I listened to stories from instructors, friends, and fellow colleagues. It really got me thinking a lot about what I really want out of what I am learning and doing. Yvonne is my new inspiration- Many a time, I found myself having a roller coaster sort of feeling when I listened to her emotional stories. I am truly moved, inspired and enlightened. (However...Is it a 3-minute impulse? Am I up to it?) I never feel so motivated before ever since I entered into NIE. The thought that it fits so perfectly to the person I hope I can be and I can do is my greatest motivation right now to start my engine (which was faulty since 4 years ago). Of course, I do aware that it might be a great ...

It has been hectic week for me recently. Though tired and burnt out, I wouldnt trade it for anything else bcoz there will not be another round of such experiences again:) On the 4th August: I have finally GRADUATED!:') This is the day, not for myself, but for my dearest parents who were looking exceptionally happy and excited. I really loved seeing them beaming with joy as they witnessed my entire graduation day-  from wearing my graduation gowns to going up on stage & receive my grad cert to taking pictures together:') To say the truth, I was initially dreading the graduation ceremonies bcoz I was thinking how sad I would be not having alot of graduating friends to take pic tgt and yet, have to see the rest taking so many pictures with their other course mates :l However, my thoughts changed when my parents excitedly asking me how we were going to the campus and when I saw in the wadsapp how 8.1 were planning to meet me in NTU:') On this big day, I really fee...

For the one month since I started out working, I felt the greatest sense of satisfaction from doing volunteering work for school and public over the past weekend:)  (although I feel that I could have contribute more) I wish I can do more, to influence and better lives, be it physically or mentally. That's why I hope to learn some first-aid skill (somewhere in the future) to protect/save lives, besides bettering the skill of educating to inculcate right values in people. The thought of doctors without border came to my mind, and I wondered if there is teachers without border too. To my surprise, there actually is!:D But ohh man how I wish the 4-year bond doesn't exist, and that I am free to make any further decision for this stage of my life:/ Nevertheless, Ming Hui let's be optimistic! I should start out by focusing on influencing and bettering lives locally, before I can do so internationally right?? :) When the time comes such that I am able to put down cer...

Came across this oldie song by 范瑋琪 while I was browsing videos for my lesson xD Specially dedicating it to my three closest and most important friends/sisters in my life:) Thanks for always being there for me: mq, pj and lev:))

突然有莫总冲动想要做内心想做的事情。 Perhaps, it is my current missing fellow course mate in Cambodia who shrugs me awake about the thoughts I am having. Suddenly, I realized that something I am not quite yet done doing what I love to do. Where's my passion towards baking gone to? Why do I contain my passion for music or dance? Why didnt I go and sign up for guitar/piano lessons and yoga/zumba? Or perhaps, it is that blue note book. Just awhile ago, I chanced upon a book which I had recorded about my past efforts and reflections during my JC journey, with many of the ups and downs, and of course, many self-motivation I have given myself during the stressful period of time. I felt kinda sad that the pagees after that were blanks as I did not continue filling them up during my uni journey. Now, I hope that I can keep these efforts and reflection alive and going by continue penning down aspirations about the next stage of my life. Hope that I would be half or more than half done doing what ...

A good chat under the night sky after the run:) However, it seems that my "stubborness" has somehow rejected listening to other POVs, which creates conflict with my personal belief and "un-confidence." Sometimes, seeking to be understood is much more complex than seeking to understand. And it hurts a little and feels sense of discomfort when you fail to be understood. Perhaps, I should seek first to understand (understand situation at a deeper level from different perspectives), in order to be understood. Or perhaps,  I just need to open my heart to put the things into different perspectives. Yes, I can.

Just a shout-out here. I should have expected that my first day of school would not be that easy. I was literally overwhelmed by everything that just come to me, with at least 5 teachers looking for me to discuss certain issues and some teachers who becomes kinda unfriendly and have words within their words (and many other incidents).  Monday blues, maybe? First day of school. 12 hours in school. Madness. #I am just saying..xD  On the brighter note, I am glad to have left my school laptop in school, because that means no work at home. It feel even more shiok using my acer laptop doing other non work-related stuff :) This should be the way (but I hope I wont have to stay back till late to finish my stuff just because I want to leave school laptop in school xD) Already missing the days of fun with my bestest friends and penguin.   Nevertheless, I feel better after typing out my thoughts. Thank you, my blog :)

A sudden urge to blog at this moment, but under the night sky. "Just because the past didnt turn out like you wanted it to, doesnt mean the future cant be better than you ever imagined" A quote that I have come across via fb just awhile ago, at the right moment, for me. Hope this can motivate me to embrace my near future better and, bravely:')

It has been long since I have teared while watching a movie. Though a simple story plot, the movie is, simply beautiful and touching :') Certainly worth some of your time to watch this movie:) Oh yes, I don't mind watching this movie again:') “There will come a time when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ign...

I have been feeling very happy recently. I guess it is the little things here and there that add up to what I am feeling so far:) I am feeling happy because I managed to settle things more quickly instead of postponing; I am feeling very happy because I finally managed to talk to friends whom I have not talked to for quite a long time (you know who you are):); I am feeling very very happy because I am able to interact with Cedar girls to understand them better through my geog field trips; I am feeling happier because there is a stronger sense of bonding in my family:D; I am feeling even happier because days spent with boyfriend are just awesome no matter what we do   {Happiness are appreciating the little things in life} Just a post to remind me of the happy days I have in my life =)

It feels great to be home!:) I have decided to give my blog a little new look (almost wanted to change to another blog link xD) to signify a real beginning (and better change) for me and my life:)  Just in case for those who will not seeing me that often in the future (and  that I might be too busy to contact you), hope that my blog can be another connection between me and you. Of course, I hope I will be able to hear about your life in some way or another too:) Although it is a mere 12-day Europe trip, I felt that it was pretty long, probably like a few weeks. Sounds like I had missed home badly! xD Anws I would give a pat on my own shoulder bcoz I have finally stepped out of my comfort zone and experience different ways of life:) Although there are cl and his family, as well as mq around during this trip, I felt some sense of accomplishment of being more independent during this trip:) Most importantly, it feels awesome to have gained richer insights about life as wel...

In certain situation, there is a need for a sudden burst of courage to get things done. Such example can be asking a person to give up a seat for another person, say a pregnant lady. Or, for a happier case, asking a person to be someone he/she really want to be with for life. As these situations have their own "location" and "time" to actually take place, there's a need for "that" moment of courage to say it out. In other situation, it's no longer about needing such moments of courage to get things through. It's now about the confidence. Yes, I am talking about my inferior mouth which is lacking of "that" confidence. The one which would procrastinate to talk, and for many times, swallow the words which can be thrown out. That's probably can explain why I always respect/admire those people who speaks eloquently, always hoping to get inspired by them, and sometimes feeling inferior with their presence.  Up to a point when I somet...

Hello to 2014! Although 2013 has become a past tense, I will not forget the many things learnt from different episodes. As the new year unfolds, I hope to make it an enriching and fulfilling one: Work 1. Enjoy myself (and cherish my remaining freedom) as a student for my last studying semester ..BUT will continue to work smart (+hard) for my remaining modules 2. Be an encouraging, inspiring and patient teacher     ..WHO teaches the students by going through their hearts before getting to their minds                     ..WHO opens the students' boundaries to experience more things around them                                   ..WHO seeks to understand and motivates the students to bec...

今天，因为某些原因， 表弟来我家住。我的心里不会像以前那么抗拒他来, 或许因为我想要尝试换个角度来看待这件事。感觉上， 其他 cousins 都不怎么想要和他玩， 我和我哥哥们是唯几个跟他还蛮可以和他打成一片的 cousins。 对于他小小年纪就得面对大人的一些问题，我相信他心里应该也不好受。 做表姐的我希望他能开心成长， 所以我并陪他玩， 跟他讲话，希望能听他心里的话。 这么小年纪，就得学那么多东西： 珠心算， 游泳， 羽毛球 和 画画。。 夸张！ 我们这里都认为这是他妈妈不要我小舅有时间与儿子相处的办法。。 真气愤，但无奈。 今天，我考研我的耐心，跟表弟玩。  最终，我累得到爸爸的房间睡觉。 起初，表弟来叫醒我，一直硬硬要我跟他玩。 他当时的口气好像小霸王，我差点要放脾气，可是最终却吞下去了, 睡着了。说真的，如果只是跟不认识的孩子扮鬼脸/玩 etc， 还不会累。 可是，跟自己的表弟表妹玩，很累很累.. 因为必须顾虑他们的感受 etc.  如果是他的父母，就累上加累。 晚上， 我感到很惭愧： 当哥哥和CL担心表弟拉烘炉拉到掉在地上打到脚， 我却担心他弄到烘炉坏掉。起初，我感到有点不高兴CL sarcastic酸我， 可是这让我发现原来我还是那么不在乎表弟。  惭愧。 从中，我也领悟了某些事情。。 好, 不想长大。

很少会因为看电视看到流泪. 也许, 对于别人来说, 这部戏 是有些无聊偏激。 但对于我来说，它让我学会及珍惜一些东西=) 要像苏小小一样，当只"打不死的蟑螂"! xD 加油! =))

最近的我,  心里想了好多东西, 有好的， 也有坏的。  遇上大姨妈， 心情仿佛好像 roller coaster 一样, 起伏不定。 真的对 家人和 Penguin 感到很不好意思， 因为在那期间, 我会对他们闹小姐脾气。真的对不起， 我会好好控制情绪=X 回想起上一个 term break 自己为自己定下的目标， 我感到好惭愧。 虽然我的这个 semester 真的着的很轻松，可以做很多我想要做的事情， 可是我却没有好好珍惜, 时间是乱乱花=S 要打扫房间， 我只做一半； 要好好陪妈妈，我只带她去牛车水； 要常去 A.L.L，我越来越力不从心; 要准备TP2 的lesson plan， 连一个都没做到。 雄心勃勃的 我, 自己似乎还在原点, 真的搞不懂我这些时候在做什么=S  也许，我不应该想东西想到太完美，因为我并不完美。 顺其自然 (我的口头禅), 不要太 over ambitious, 应该会好很多点吧。 在这当儿, 比较闲空的我, 也想了好多友情上的东西 。读了朋友的博客，感触更多。心里也憋得蛮久，不知道什么时候有勇气在谈到这个话题。 或许，有些朋友觉得事情就是这样，改不了, 但我觉得对于一些东西我们都不应该当作理所当然。我可以理解现在的我们负担越来越多， priority 也不同了，可是真希望我们的友情不会因这样而经不起这些改变。感觉上，经过那一段的争执,  我们变得很客气， ‘no obligation’ 类似的话语也多了, 真不知道该如何是好。真有点郁闷。 有时候， 我在想如果有一天我遇到车祸或得到癌症， 我会怎么办, 怎样利用我剩下的时间。 On a brighter note, 我觉得我对教书越来越有热忱了 :D 虽然我不会一辈子呆在 teaching service 里， 但我会在这接下来的四五年里用心教书，了解学生，给他们人生的启发 =) 我也更有勇气面对一些人事物， 把事情处理得好一些。更高兴的是, 我和家人的亲情, penguin 的感情, 及好朋友的友情变得更亲，更体谅对方了!=)) Before I sleep, ，想对我的家人, penguin 和在我生命里最重要的好朋友说: “谢谢你们这些年的陪伴与支持!” =') Calling out to my five e...

I am not a 100% perfect girlfriend. You are not a 100% perfect boyfriend.  Although we are not the 100% perfect couple, but i am thankful that we are always seek to understand and better each other along the way. Thanks for always being so understanding (even when I play tantrum until some parts seem too absurd at times=X) and brightening up my day=)) Thank you, penguin

Yes, today marks my first day of my 4th year at NTU. After attending my friend's and cl's convocation, I really hoped that I had graduated at that moment too! The joy of graduation really tempts me to want to fast forward to my convocation day! xD But then again, I will certainly miss my school life and some of the best times I spent with my best (but few) university friends as well as in CCA. For that, it reminds me to cherish my time I have for my final year at NTU, as a student. And I certainly, will=) With a 2-day week this semester I am thinking of using this time for other things which I have usually neglected: Spending more time with family (especially mum), cleaning my room, helping A.L.L and needy, as well as baking/cooking new interesting food=)  With (seemingly) more time at hand, reminder to self: Cherish the time spent on different things and make full use of time to do what I like and on meaningful stuff too because YOLO=)) Believe in myself, I can an...

As I enter into my 20s, I found myself to have exposed to more meaningful and learn-able experiences which slowly brings me to understand the cycle of birth, aged, sick and death. Here are some of my small yet impactful life experiences: After a month of internship at Swissbake, I think that perhaps, I shouldnt lump interest and job together because when an interest becomes a job, and that the job become a chore, interest will slowly diminished. And so, maybe baking/cooking can be just my recreational activities=) Due to such a thought and experience at Swissbake, I feel more strongly that being a teacher is a best choice for me! Haha. After chatting with mq, Brenda and bk, I begin to wonder, what do I aim for in life? I believe I will find it eventually and so, let nature takes its course. This aside,  I also begin to understand death from another perspective, sadly, only after my neighbour passed away suddenly and without saying a proper goodbye to him. I was stunned a...