Yoz! Not feeling really well. Flu, sore throat and lack of sleep.
I thought Level camp would be very fun ( Comfort Zone). But it turned out to be a demon training ( Learning Zone) for today.
Level Camp Day 1:
All the J1s were being "contained" inside the hall. The windows on the door were pasted with white paper to avoid ppl from the outside from peeping in.W had a humourous instructor for the camp. In order to let us mix around, he taught us 5 ways of shaking hands with those people around us! LOLS really unique, funny and quite fun la! LOLS. We had also learnt the difference between reaction and resposiveness too. We had learnt that when smths trigger our mind, we should pause, choose and act.
There are no good choices or bad choices, they are CHOICES.
After lunch, I was having stomachache, probably i ate too fast bahx. Then it came a higher risk and challenge for the camp. Each group will have 6 members. 1 will be the pusher(The one who who decide his/her goal, negative points which pull him/her down as well as positive points which encourage him/her to move forward), 3 will be the blockers ( negative points) and 2 will be the supporters( positive points). This traning section was really hiong ar! Everyone was flabbergasted when the instructor and the facillitators did a demo for us. The blockers were shouting to the pusher that he can't do it while the supporters were encouraging the pusher not to give up. The pusher, him/herself, had to try his/her best to overcome the push by the 3 blockers by pushing with all his/her might against the 3 of them. Really Hiong sia.Like people fighting with one another. I even heard frm Shijie telling me that her CT mates cried upon seeing this scene.
I was really scared at that moment too. Also, i was still having stomachache at that time and I felt that my body was wobbly.I had gotten a taste of being a blocker and supporter during the training.We had 6 rounds of that training and I was the last one to experiene it. Although it was very hiong, it had gauged my perserverance through this process. I have learnt to ignore my negative pts while holding on to the positive pts and move against the blockers towards my goal. However, my shoes were slippery so i kept slipping and felling onto the ground. Nevertheless, from this training, it exposed my weaknesses and helped me to see and overcome it.
After a short break again, we were taught public speaking skill. Each of us had to stand on the table to tell the audiences( Our CT mates) our goals and why is it impt to us. During this process, the audiences would keep asking why what i want to do r impt to me and they will be given to act as being ah bengs and ah lians ( Uninterested and complaining crowd) or being 70-year-old ah ma and ah gong ( Naggy and pretending dun noe what the speaker is talking about) etc. etc. Gosh, i was the 6th speaker! But it was my willingness to do so. When i got up on the table, the whole table shaked terribly, like a 3.5 scale earthquake! Really shaking alot and I couldn't stop it! Then, I tried to calm myself down and finally the table managed to settle down. So yup, i started talking about goals, why they are impt to me and after i said that i want to reach my goal bcoz i dun want others people to look down on me, I became silent and dun noe what to say. I totally stunned and lost until the instrutor told all of us in the hall to stop. I could see disappointment on my facillitator's face. Why does she need to show me her expression to pull down my confidence? Why? I thought she should motivate me?:/
I was sneezing alot and my eyes were watery due to constant sneezing. My CT mates saw me and were asking whether i was alright anot. I was glad that some of them still do care about me. =D Thank You!
As the instructor saw that most of the J1s were not taking the public speaking training seriously, he was unhappy and had decided to stop the training and even ended it for a day. After today's camp, everyone was tired. Bk said that it was a very weird training camp, like Superteen and Church camp like that. Both Rachael and I also cried too. I dun noe why i cried but I juz felt like crying.=X
After today's experiences, I really wonder whether this Level camp had really benefited me much anot. Through today's process, my perserverance which i usually have dropped down alot. I felt abit useless but yet, saw and learnt from my weaknesses during the processes.
Well, i hope that tmr will be an enjoyable, not that physically hiong yet challenging Level Camp day 2=)
My future lies in my hand.
Believe in Myself, I can and I will! =D
To be continued...
I thought Level camp would be very fun ( Comfort Zone). But it turned out to be a demon training ( Learning Zone) for today.
Level Camp Day 1:
All the J1s were being "contained" inside the hall. The windows on the door were pasted with white paper to avoid ppl from the outside from peeping in.W had a humourous instructor for the camp. In order to let us mix around, he taught us 5 ways of shaking hands with those people around us! LOLS really unique, funny and quite fun la! LOLS. We had also learnt the difference between reaction and resposiveness too. We had learnt that when smths trigger our mind, we should pause, choose and act.
There are no good choices or bad choices, they are CHOICES.
After lunch, I was having stomachache, probably i ate too fast bahx. Then it came a higher risk and challenge for the camp. Each group will have 6 members. 1 will be the pusher(The one who who decide his/her goal, negative points which pull him/her down as well as positive points which encourage him/her to move forward), 3 will be the blockers ( negative points) and 2 will be the supporters( positive points). This traning section was really hiong ar! Everyone was flabbergasted when the instructor and the facillitators did a demo for us. The blockers were shouting to the pusher that he can't do it while the supporters were encouraging the pusher not to give up. The pusher, him/herself, had to try his/her best to overcome the push by the 3 blockers by pushing with all his/her might against the 3 of them. Really Hiong sia.Like people fighting with one another. I even heard frm Shijie telling me that her CT mates cried upon seeing this scene.
I was really scared at that moment too. Also, i was still having stomachache at that time and I felt that my body was wobbly.I had gotten a taste of being a blocker and supporter during the training.We had 6 rounds of that training and I was the last one to experiene it. Although it was very hiong, it had gauged my perserverance through this process. I have learnt to ignore my negative pts while holding on to the positive pts and move against the blockers towards my goal. However, my shoes were slippery so i kept slipping and felling onto the ground. Nevertheless, from this training, it exposed my weaknesses and helped me to see and overcome it.
After a short break again, we were taught public speaking skill. Each of us had to stand on the table to tell the audiences( Our CT mates) our goals and why is it impt to us. During this process, the audiences would keep asking why what i want to do r impt to me and they will be given to act as being ah bengs and ah lians ( Uninterested and complaining crowd) or being 70-year-old ah ma and ah gong ( Naggy and pretending dun noe what the speaker is talking about) etc. etc. Gosh, i was the 6th speaker! But it was my willingness to do so. When i got up on the table, the whole table shaked terribly, like a 3.5 scale earthquake! Really shaking alot and I couldn't stop it! Then, I tried to calm myself down and finally the table managed to settle down. So yup, i started talking about goals, why they are impt to me and after i said that i want to reach my goal bcoz i dun want others people to look down on me, I became silent and dun noe what to say. I totally stunned and lost until the instrutor told all of us in the hall to stop. I could see disappointment on my facillitator's face. Why does she need to show me her expression to pull down my confidence? Why? I thought she should motivate me?:/
I was sneezing alot and my eyes were watery due to constant sneezing. My CT mates saw me and were asking whether i was alright anot. I was glad that some of them still do care about me. =D Thank You!
As the instructor saw that most of the J1s were not taking the public speaking training seriously, he was unhappy and had decided to stop the training and even ended it for a day. After today's camp, everyone was tired. Bk said that it was a very weird training camp, like Superteen and Church camp like that. Both Rachael and I also cried too. I dun noe why i cried but I juz felt like crying.=X
After today's experiences, I really wonder whether this Level camp had really benefited me much anot. Through today's process, my perserverance which i usually have dropped down alot. I felt abit useless but yet, saw and learnt from my weaknesses during the processes.
Well, i hope that tmr will be an enjoyable, not that physically hiong yet challenging Level Camp day 2=)
My future lies in my hand.
Believe in Myself, I can and I will! =D
To be continued...
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