沉默的, 羔羊
我不是 沉默的羔羊
我有话 要讲
给我 一点酒
让我 有勇气
向你吐露 我的悲伤
That negative mentality continues to stay in my mind, as I told myself that I will sort it out once and for all someday, soon. To say the truth, it is not really THAT stressed as the work is not that much throughout the week~ After years and past months of attempts to stay positive by thinking different on the brighter side of different pathway to work towards to, 心里总是带着无奈.
Imagine you are just always worrying about not able to do as good job as the rest. Imagine you are always worrying and getting nervous for lessons although you have spent so much time preparing for them. Imagine you still feeling sunday and monday blues before the end of that day comes. Imagine you always wanting to count down to the end of 4-year bond, but you resisted because you don't want to make yourself sound so miserable. Imagine you are still thinking negatively despite all the attempts to think positive and working out different pathways to what you want to be. Imagine you are not always on track and motivated, although you have already made plans for yourself.
Am I really planning what I wanted to do? Or am I planning to "escape" and "divert attention" from where I am now? What do I want? I guess it's time to face such reality.
Feeling kinda angst recently, with things like bringing students out for a disorganized event on a weekend, with parents, and even 跟表哥顶嘴 to voice out my displeasure..but he is driving my nerve..especially today >:( . 天啊， 我怎么了？得到礼貌大使的我既然表现出这样的行为？D:
Had teared quite alot recently, and am mentally drained. At one point, I am asking myself, "为什么我会为这些无谓的事情流泪难过? 值得吗？" In comparison to the situation other people like sj is facing, my case is just a small thing. Yet, she tried to stay positive and even share joke with and bring excitement to 8.1! :')
I really need to count my blessing. 尽管自己活在幸福中, 却总是往往羡慕着别人有多幸福，浪漫，快乐. 但是别人的幸福, 何必要模仿? 自己的快乐幸福是由自己去把握.
与其一直不快乐，当个乐观快乐的羔羊吧！(给我一点时间..) Meh~:')
我有话 要讲
给我 一点酒
让我 有勇气
向你吐露 我的悲伤
That negative mentality continues to stay in my mind, as I told myself that I will sort it out once and for all someday, soon. To say the truth, it is not really THAT stressed as the work is not that much throughout the week~ After years and past months of attempts to stay positive by thinking different on the brighter side of different pathway to work towards to, 心里总是带着无奈.
Imagine you are just always worrying about not able to do as good job as the rest. Imagine you are always worrying and getting nervous for lessons although you have spent so much time preparing for them. Imagine you still feeling sunday and monday blues before the end of that day comes. Imagine you always wanting to count down to the end of 4-year bond, but you resisted because you don't want to make yourself sound so miserable. Imagine you are still thinking negatively despite all the attempts to think positive and working out different pathways to what you want to be. Imagine you are not always on track and motivated, although you have already made plans for yourself.
Am I really planning what I wanted to do? Or am I planning to "escape" and "divert attention" from where I am now? What do I want? I guess it's time to face such reality.
Feeling kinda angst recently, with things like bringing students out for a disorganized event on a weekend, with parents, and even 跟表哥顶嘴 to voice out my displeasure..but he is driving my nerve..especially today >:( . 天啊， 我怎么了？得到礼貌大使的我既然表现出这样的行为？D:
Had teared quite alot recently, and am mentally drained. At one point, I am asking myself, "为什么我会为这些无谓的事情流泪难过? 值得吗？" In comparison to the situation other people like sj is facing, my case is just a small thing. Yet, she tried to stay positive and even share joke with and bring excitement to 8.1! :')
I really need to count my blessing. 尽管自己活在幸福中, 却总是往往羡慕着别人有多幸福，浪漫，快乐. 但是别人的幸福, 何必要模仿? 自己的快乐幸福是由自己去把握.
与其一直不快乐，当个乐观快乐的羔羊吧！(给我一点时间..) Meh~:')
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