My greatest source of motivation.

At this very moment, I am q-ing outside the Instana. The queue is really long, and I am actually in the queue outside PS. It really touching to see how so many of us stood patiently for their turn, and I believe Mr Lee is also touched in another world:')

Yesterday was a really trying day for me, to manage my emotions upon hearing the passing of Mr Lee when I woke up from my sleep. I guessed I was right, to have a vibe about this happening when there was a really loud thunder and lightening at SGH yesterday. It might be, a sign.

The toughest part for me was to actually travel to school with a heavy heart, to hear my Principal telling the school about the passing of Mr Lee, to seeing the flag half-flown and having one minute of silence. My colleagues teared. I teared, uncontrobally. I needed to tell myself to control them so that I would be able to talk to my students about it later on. Nevertheless, I was not ready and my co-form helped to facilitate the discussion. My heart is really heavy, my Monday was especially blue. 

Today, my school gathered all teachers to gather inside the room for last min meeting to talk to our form class students about Mr Lee tomorrow. I teared again upon watching the video, and attempted not to but looking at the handout and listening to his voices. I still, teared. My co-form will not be with me tmr as she gt course, I will be the one who are doing discussion with my students. I am scared that my tears will literally fall, yet I would like to be inspirational to my students at the same time. 

I guess, at this very moment, Mr Lee's particular quote will be the motivating power to keep me going and discuss with the students about him tomorrow. It will also be the enlightening moment for me to get out of the things that were troubling  and weighing down on me, and cherish the opportunities and happiness ahead of me. 

"I would say that I'm determined when I set out to do something.. If i decide that something is worth doing, I'll then put my heart and soul into it"

Thank you Mr Lee, you will be fondly, remembered..from the bottom of my heart.

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