Life is not just about the race

There were alot of things happening recently, especially during the preparation of Dec event till now at the moment. Several particular events had also made me think alot for the past few nights, sorting out my thoughts. I thought I was quite determined to stay in main comm next year, but after the Dec event and stuff, I began to ponder whether to stay on anot, or to leave and remain as members. I missed the times being as a member..no need to get myself so busy for many things (which my bro regarded that as redundant) and stress myself out. But then again, it was the main comm work that kept me occupied and going when I was down and didnt feel like going to school for the previous semester. I dont deny that joining main comm had brought me quite some fun and laughter, as well as some lessons learnt..including training me to become more vocal and confident in speaking up. Perhaps, Haur Ming is right. Since I dun need to earn hall points, I can just quit main comm and join sub-comm in...

You are getting not only on mq's nerve, but also my nerves this time. Am I the reason that makes you become like that (I will really really be guilty for that :/) or are you always like this? I was really quite angry with you just now, but still need to xin ping qi he de update you about T-Edge volunteer's bonding. Tell me, what are you thinking? I am tired of this guessing game, I bet mq too. The results have released. Many people kept asking me why I don't want to check out now. Well, the results will still be there, I will know it sooner or later within mouse click. However, I dont deny that I got abit xiao jing zhang coz i wonder how badly i will fare this time LOL. This is the first ever exam that i really shun qi zi ran, as in dun have much fear unlike in the past de shang kao chang. Although I do admit that I am a little hack care about my studies this time round, there is still a thrust in me to make sure that I get at least As and Bs for all subjects. For that, I a...

It felt great to stay at home the whole day! (: Stayed at home clearing my room, chit-chatting with my mother, as well as walking to and fro kitchen to find food to munch on! :X After clearing the room for one whole day, I managed to clear all those unwanted stuff! *hint hint* Retail therapy soon? Hahaha. There is one particular drawer in my room, yes, that one, that kept all my past memories, from primary sch to sec sch and to JC years. As I re-opened and re-read the letters and stuff, I couldn't stop smiling and sometimes, armchioing to myself (: The ones that imprinted deeply in my mind were those talking about my smile! Hahaha. I am wondering whether my smile is really that infectious, like what Janice had said in her farewell note! xD But yea, I will spread the smile to more people and brighten up their day(: Stop frowning, smile a little! :D Things are progessing pretty well over these past few weeks (: , though there were ups and downs, as well as several dilemmas. Am I rea...

Friday was such a "happening" day with Candice, Meiqi, Shijie and I when we went to collect pinatas from our sponsors. We spent one hr plus flagging for taxi at a niao bu sheng dan de di fang. When we really did flag for a taxi, it was the time when the 3 of us (at different locations) flag for 3 cabs respectively at the same time! -.- Shld I laugh or cry? Lol. Anws we went for sushi buffet next! Okay, the same things have already repeated so many times. I cant stand myself for always messing up such stuff. If some things known are meant to complicate more things, I think it will be, at best, remain unknown. BK ORD loh! :D I was really honoured to have been invited by BK to attend his ORD parade with jinhoe! I was kinda excited about it coz I nvr been to army camp before! I kept taking pictures of BK during the parade and even snapped one picture which caught BK armchio-ing! Hahaha. And, I finally met one of his fellow mate whom he kept mentioning to me before too! At the sam...

Felt so much better after saying all out to Candice! (: Looking forward to dec! :D

This time, I will cherish it..(:

This morning, I went with jamie to Mrs Yeap's wake at the church. And what a coincidence that I met CL there too! He was there to help out for his friend's wedding though. After walking around the church area, we managed to find the room where Mrs Yeap was, and we became realy solemn. In there, we silently prayed for her and went forward to see Mrs Yeap one last time. Tears welled up. I regretted not having to wish her happy teachers' day this year. Mrs Yeap, thanks for your guidance during my 4 years in XMC, especially when I was the choir president then. Although you are strict, but that's bcoz you care for us; Although you always insisted us to put on thick red lipstick, but that's bcoz you wanted us to look best in public; Although you scolded us, but that's becoz you love us, Xinmin Chorale. RIP Mrs Yeap. Remembering you, always.

Some questions are meant to be unanswered.

Had a good chat with Nich and BK just now (:

The very first movie that I can closely relates to. Meaning within a meaning.

Slow but steady.

I am sorry that I created huge problem for you, I am sorry that I failed to help you. I am even sorry that you have to help me explain. I know I didn't care enough, but i will, try.

"But I want you to move on, so I am already gone."

For always showing your concern to me, thank you. For always being encouraging, thank you. For always being there for me, thank you. For always trying to keep me optimisitc, thank you. For always sacrificing, thank you. Thanks for always being such a nice person. Although I had neglected your feelings, you still continue to do it that way. From now onwards, I will cherish and be grateful for what you have done, because I do not want to lose such a friend like you.

My 3 months plus of holiday is coming to an end. I am currently left with only 1 last week of holiday! Omg, cant believe it, time really flies so fast.. I remembered I was planning for foc summer camp, followed by executing it. After that, I went to taiwan with 8.1 peeps and then went for my sch experience- Everything started and ended so fast. I went to check out my inbox today and I saw an email sent by my geog teacher. She was giving a brief introductory and instruction for my upcoming module. I really feel that school is starting. When I saw the lecture time for her module, every tue, 2.30-5.30p.m, I was like...what will be my complete timetable looks like? Lol I wonder..Dread staying in school for that long.. I am expecting myself to get really busy this coming semester. Busy with the upcoming learning fest, foc camp, studies, project work and assignments! I want to work harder for this upcoming and subsequent sem to score higher GPA..hopefully I can go to HK for exchange/ go for ...

Today will be a busy but fun day! (:

Be brave.

只有在體會愛的不完美 才能夠學會愛該怎麼給..

Maybe I am thinking too much; Maybe I need to be clear on my stance. I cannot be the first to wish you, because I cant.

So long didn't update about blog alrdy. And so gona make it alive at this wee hour xD I am still missing the days from 17jun-25jun! There were so much fun and laughter back then. The june summer camp, which i was put as in-charge was finally executed and it went rather smoothly..The taiwan trip, which we had alot of fun although it was tiring..I hope time will turn back (but it will nvr be..). Some things will stop while others will continue.. I am now working at godma's office, not really working though. Lol. Can say only helping out..will use fb and read storybook whenenver there's nth for me to do:X And next week is my school experience alrdy, i am so excited plus nervous about it! Need to try out the bus route which i am taking on mon! Yea finally went to run after so long since my tw trip! I just realised from ym that speed sometimes dun matter, it's the distance that counts. And I tried out 4km run at my own time, own target! Although I was so tired that i may fl...

"人和人的相遇相知相处真的是件奇妙的事"..

有些事情是不能勉强的. 勉强,反而会弄巧成拙.

Ytd was a busy day! I was busy teaching chinese tuition and going to NTU for the June Event dry run. I was happy that I didn't feel the sense of frustration when I taught the two kids chinese again. I not sure why is it so but I believe that it was the Meranti experience which had change my perspective in mindset. And so, teaching them tuition is more relax and not that stress up anymore (: I had dry run until 7 plus with the Foc members! Busy trying out the games and ensuring that the games work out nicely; Busy discussing about certain issues raised by the members. And today, I learn not to judge a person by its cover. I was really surprised that Wen Xiang actually particiapted actively in the dry run and was very concerned about the event! I really wronged him liao and I feel bad about it xD AND his action looks like nich sia! At times, he is "irritating" and funny; At other times, he is very serious during the June event discussion. Hahaha meiqi and I will kept sayin...

I couldn't feel my passion towards teaching so strong before. I did not regret participating in the compulsory Meranti Project last thursday and friday. Before the 2-day workshop, I had a mindset that it gonna be a "brainwash" and uninteresting workshop. However, I was wrong and I had learnt alot from it. On the first day of the workshop, all of us were told to write and share about our own life journey. Seriously, I didn't really think much about my life which I had been through throughout all my living years. As such, writing/ drawing my own life journey did took me some times. I mentioned about my happy family, primary school life when my discipline mistress took away my opportunity to become prefect etc, my secondary life which i met my 14 close frieds etc, JC year which was the most depressing period for me and what I am thinking now. In front of the whole class, I also expressed my greatest gratitude towards my eldest brother- I realised that it was him, who is ...

Had a hot but fun day with 8.1 at Kusu Island! (: And the journey to and fro the Kusu Island on boat were the best parts! :DD Pissed off by my 2nd bro (Not again 0.0)! He said I loaded and played the videos lagged his game! Really got such a problem? Is our internet that cui? Big bro alrdy told you, is you ying ying choose Singtel one, so lag cannot blame anyone! And you still say nth to do with this?? Rahh. Had to forgo my Noose and go to sleep now. Good nite. Watch The Noose in my dream...

Ytd was Friday, the 13th. This made me remember the sec 1 volleyball incident tgt with 2E2 gang xD So exciting but scary xD It was a good good day with Sherlyn! Haha started baking shortbread cookies for Sherlyn's belated birthday in the morning and then went to her mother's industrial company to meet her and her 3 dogs: Ah Wang, Daisy and Rose! Haha. This was my first time seeing such as a big lazy dog, a shy dog and also a polite dog!:D Ah Wang was very big and I was scared of him. I remembered that I accidentaly stepped on his leg (abit only) when I wanted to zi pai with him, and he growled at me!! I was super scared at that moment, but luckily he understood that wo shi bu xiao de, so he just ignored me. Lol. Daisy was so camera-shy! She will shan lai shan qu de, like thinking "bu yao pai wo, bu yao pai wo!" xD Haha she is so cute. And rose shook hand with me although her legs were injured! At first, she didn't want to shake hand with me when I stretched out my...

The Singapore General Election has finally ended! During the GE period, it had created a great hoo-ha in the country. This year, we can also see a greater push for more changes from the PAP governent and there was a significant rise in the number of GE participation from the younger Singaporeans. Before the voting day, fiery rally speeches were heard and seen all around from TV, radios, newspaper and even social mass media like facebook and twitter. During this time, I also tried to keep myself updated about the GE news from yahoo news and fb. Moreover, there was also political discussion in my family too! Haha and as expected, I was mainly the listener and learner in this politics discussion. From the things I see and hear, there are many Singaporeans, especially the younger ones who are more pro-opposition while the older generation remains pro-PAP. It is no doubt that the older ones are pro-PAP because they had went through the difficult times during the Singapore's nation build...

Yes finally went to K with Eileen today! Sang around 40 plus songs for 3 hrs straight! Haha I was really happy that I finally got to sing wo yi wei, qin ren, wo ai ta and ni wei shen me shuo huang @ Partyworld! LOL. Anws today's session @ TGY was okay. Eileen didn't assign me to the usual kid (the "active" one) that I have taught for the past few weeks though. She let me teach those "handle-able" kids today haha. Somehow, I feel less stressful when I am with T-edge kids but feel more stressful when I am with TGY kids.

The tutioning session with the T-Edge kids were messy but hilarious ytd! It was messy because the kids were very hao dong and kept talking to their friends. The secondary school science is so difficult!! All of the tutors dunow how to do:X I remembered got one qns is about food chain, then the qns wants the students to name the trophic level. But, what is trophic level in the first place?? None of us knew. So we asked the kid to skip this qns first :X Haha one of the kid in my group always makes me laugh ^^ Last saturday, he tried to make fun of me in the taxi by saying, "Mummy, I want milk milk" when the taxi uncle asked whether the 4 kids in the taxi belongs to me -.-" Ytd, when Pooi Chin, Gary, James and I were talking about GE, the kid asked me who I support. He kept pressing me to say out the party I am supporting although I said I am on neutral stance. And he took away my phone, saying, "If you don't say who you support, you will not see ur hp again"....

Exam was over since last last thurday! Although it was over, I still reflected about my performance during exam. This time, I did smth different for my exam revision and I am not sure whether it can help in my exam anot. So, it is undeniable that I am quite concern about my exam result too. But whatever it is, I feel that unless I change my studying method, I will never improve myself. One takeaway lesson from my Sem 2 exam: Be exam smart! Yea I finally got to carry on with my xia yi zhan, xin fu and I am at ep 19 alrdy! :D It's really a nice and touching video to watch (: And the songs all very pei to the videos! I am addicted to both the show and the songs alrdy!! My mind will think of xia yi zhan, xin fu whenever I wake up from my sleep xD 我的以为只是我以为..

Time to focus on studies.

伤了第一颗, 我已经很内疚 再伤了第二颗, 我无比内疚 我的选择是好还是坏? 时间会证明. 如果我的选择是好,那就好 如果我的选择是坏,我会后悔不已 时间会证明. I finally managed to take some time to run in the park (: It is always the place for me to rethink and reflect and I felt pretty good after that. I realised that 有些事情不能顺其自然, 要做就赶快做, 要不然就会白白失去. On a brighter note, I am finally discharged! (: In addition, 8.1 reunited today! :D

First time attending JJ concert and it was simply awesome!:D Totally immensed in all his songs and totally rocked with him and xiao jing teng!!:DD Tears also rolled down at some point of time too xD I am really inspired by JJ's words and what he sang(: Instead of losing motivation bcoz there is no more JJ concert to look forward to alrdy, I should rmb what JJ had said and 把它化为推动力 :D JJ, you have leave an imprint in my heart and you will be part of the source of motivation for me :D I think I have 真正了解 what do you mean by I AM (: Jiayou JJ! All of us will always be here for you! 你最棒! ^^ Remember " For when I AM weak, then I AM strong "

This week was a bad week for me :/ Everything was bad. There were alot of troubles piling within me. And this partly caused my 2 assignments to screw up :'( Monday, i was scolded by my teacher during cooking session. I ming ming studied and prepared myself for the practical alrdy but i still screwed up. My teacher kept saying why i so slow and why i didn't focus :( During this week, I heard my mother's side de family troubles and my xin li also wei le zhe xie shi qing er fan shang jia fan. Moreover, I thought I have straighten out my thought and am now looking ahead to finish these 8 years. But, I jus realised I zhen de hai shi zuo bu dao:(( I got chong dong xiang quit! But i know xiang zhe yang duo, zui huo hai shi will stay back de. No use, no point thinking about it. Also, what i studying now is actually what i want (cooking + resource mgmt + entrepreneurship + geography). It is just that the job i want is different. Just as I was so down, i felt encouraged by these wor...

I had an awesome JJ day with shijie just now:D In the morn, i went for my discourse academic writing lesson. Usually, I used to write my reflection very slowly. But today, surprisingly, I could write very fast and left the class earlier xD Coz it's JJ day! :D Met up with sj to collect the concert tix before heading to pasta waruku for lunch. Lol there was a variety of pasta there and we dunoe which one to choose! Haha in the end, we decided to take half+half pasta set each so that we can have 4 different pastas altgt:D LOL. We took up a challenge to order the black black squid with squid ink pasta! Haha we were wondering, "squid ink can consume de meh?". But anws,we just try it for fun xD Andd it turned out to taste very nice! Even better than the rest of the pasta which we ordered sia. LOL. Yea the long awaited JJ qian ming hui! Haha i was very excited sia. Sj said i looked like yi qian de ta. Haha. But when we were approaching him, I became jin zhang and stoned there s...

Not feeling really well this week. The eye allergy come and go and it spreads to other parts of body ;// Itchy, itchy and more itchy. In addition, there are two upcoming deadlines for my submission of assignments too >. 进退两难 没有承诺, 哪何交待. Gone. Go with it. I should learn to stock-take of myself so that I will understand myself better. Thanks eileen (TGY) for reminding me that (:

"Coz being too optimistic, you always see things in a good ways and miss out some stuff that you need to rectify. But overall, being optimistic is still the best (:" Yes, we think alike although it is quite contradicting xD Happy CNY eve!!:D Going to 守夜 later tonight ((:

I thought this week would be a relaxing and 顺利 de week. But it turned out otherwise:X Monday: I gave a presentation on a book summary for my food and society module. It was pretty smooth oversll although i stumbled at times (as usual). I was glad when my lecturer said i was very informative :D Although this was a happy note for me, the cooking part was D:. The story goes like this: I was supposed to toast the bread and my lecturer said jus put in oven to toast. So at first, she turned the timer to 3 min. After 3 mins, the bread was still soft so i toasted again for another 3min. When my teacher came to check on te bread again, she toasted again for a further 3min coz the breads were still not toasted will enough. And so, as i was melting cheese and the rest in a saucepan, i suddenly rmb my bread! I immediately chiong to the oven. And i said, "OMG!" and thought ,"我完了". My lecturer said nvm, can scrape off the black black side and eat and she even apologized to me co...

Blogging at near 5a.m. Haha. Was doing my Food & Society presentation on a book summary >. I like ALS101 lesson! My prof is so encouraging! She helped me build up confidence to speak up bravely during lesson(: Thanks mj bro, ivan and prof for encouraging me to have more confidence in speaking english to the everyone, even the eng pros!(: I would not forget my bro's words, " Eng Language is just a medium for communication and conveying your ideas. What matters most is the quality of your ideas. If your idea is good, no one will not condemn you even though ur english is not as good." So I guess my tue wouldn't be as depressing anymore when I am faced with all the eng pros:X Went to celebrate Jiayan's 20th bdae on fri with NY clique! :D Ate at Ramen Play and later went to somewhere to sit down to chat. Naturally, all of us were talking about relationships. Now, out of 8 of us, 4 attached, 4 singles xD Lol they were discussing who will be the 5th to get attache...

知足常乐. Life is how you lived(:

Today practical lesson was better than last week! But Ms Soo kept saying i slow -.-" Oh man i got to speed up in collecting, cutting, chopping ingredients! But i am happy that i am getting abit more steady..as in not very kan chiong le! :D And yea I cooked begger's chicken and pan-fried dumplings! :D For the begger chicken, i marinated the chicken and massage it. When i went to my ah ma's house after my lesson, I saw doggie from her back and her backside really looked like the chicken which i had marinated earlier! LOL. Overall today, I felt rather moody;/ Everything, as in my day, gone haywired and not according to plan. Poor time management again ;/ And thinking about miscellaneous stuff ;/ But I managed to reorganize better for the subsequent days using another planner (: 男人女人 song is kinda addictive. I dunoe how many umpteen times i had played since morning before i went to school, afternoon at ah ma's hse and now xD 慢慢等song is nice too! But i cant help smiling wh...

如果你离开了 我束手无策怎麼办 但愿我爱上的不是爱上你的习惯 Today is the 2nd week of school! And I am going to start my week by cooking beggar's chicken and pan-fried dumpling! Haha sounds yummy! (: There are alot of things to do (need or want), and upcoming events to look forward to (i.e. JJ party 5, JJ concert, taiwan trip!! :D). All these keep me going! (: